I can’t break this anxiousness to be at another point in time. It’s my greatest downfall right now. I feel like I’m still waiting for something that may never happen for me. It’s pretty miserable and pathetic. I wish I could instantly transform my unrestlessness into contentment. Hahahahhahahahahhahahaha that’s what everyone wants, right.
I wish I was playing w my kid, watching her transcend time. Or at the least, my partner in life, my man, my king, by my side making our way there.
It seems so impossible now.
I’m trying to focus on the things that make me happy for the rest of the day.
- Tasty food
- Working out (well not ever before, but after..)
- Reading Marrianne Williamson’s Illuminata
- My fish